It's a salty curse that no matter how much you try to make people around you happy and satisfied with the kind of a person you are,no matter how or what all you give in or give up for their sake,in the end,they find one or the other avenue to detest you.
Well,it's nobody's fault because it's the human tendency..it's an inclination to think in a certain way.Hmmmm.. frustrating,isn't it? And I strongly believe that the best way to overcome this accustomed behaviour by the elements around us is to remain unbothered-blithesome-care-free. Having a happy-go-lucky persona really helps. I can say this because two very close people to me maintain this I-don't give-a- damn-what-anyone-thinks-of-me attitude and they live life the way they want and trust me on this,they are "the" happy creatures of my life(touchwood to that).
I too,originally,belong to the like category of these two marvellous people but lately,I have been a little too careful,to an extent that I forget that life is beautiful and has to be lived only once.,probably because I've started living away from my family now and that my near and dear have so acutely made me cognizant of the incidents that take place every now and then ,especially those related to girls,in Delhi.Adding further,It eventually matters to me what people around me think of me or what do I do to make them think that I am better than what they think of me.
Deep down I know exactly what I am,my nature,my thinking,everything and I believe I am a little too good and a lot sensitive person and posses a weak heart.Keeping my modesty intact,I believe my nature is the best thing about me.:D It's like a better,old version of me is fading away superseded by the new one. One precise reason behind this,what I think is moving to Delhi and leaving Lucknow.
At first place,everything seemed so new to me,Delhi is far more different from Lucknow.Secondly,some unfortunate past events that had a major effect on me.Thirdly,a year gap between school and college made me dull(SO,I would love to suggest that think TWICE,before dropping a year and do not stay ideal even if you take a gap,it has adverse effects,well it did have one on me though)And fourthly,I probably have it somewhere in me,to strive and impress but,.in the end,its the real me who makes people love me..But everyone goes through this period at some point of time,why did it had to affect me..?
All I want is to go back to the time when I didn't have to make an effort to do crazy things around me,when I didn't think much as to what the other person would think or react or how he would interpret if I say something to him,what if it offended him/her or made him/her think otherwise. Why is it so hard for me to understand now that I am responsible only for what I say to them and what I mean by saying that and not for what the other person understands. How hard it is to speak out my mind and support anything and everything that I believe is right ? Why is this fear arising within me to think twice before speaking to someone and keeping my mouth shut even when I feel bad or offended by the gesture of the other person.This isn't me at first place.
It is really important for me to live by my own vision and stand up for myself and my kins. So here I am,in my blogosphere(the word,shamelessly stolen from Vinati..:P) making a promise to myself to get back and be myself again that I used to be before..to love myself the way I am..Why would I want to be smebody I am not.? It equally applies to all of you out there who feel the same way. Love yourself,your face,your body and your personality.YOU wouldn't be you without them. If anyone talks awful about you or acts atrociously,you stick your middle finger and say screw it..!! It only means that you are better than them anytime..My happiness won't depend on anyone,anymore..except for people who deserve to be with me and with whom I want to live my life with..Don't forget to love yourself..love your imperfections,your flaws,they make you..they make me..And guess what>.>I just found out one thing about me,that ME is pretty wonderful..:)
Well,it's nobody's fault because it's the human tendency..it's an inclination to think in a certain way.Hmmmm.. frustrating,isn't it? And I strongly believe that the best way to overcome this accustomed behaviour by the elements around us is to remain unbothered-blithesome-care-free. Having a happy-go-lucky persona really helps. I can say this because two very close people to me maintain this I-don't give-a- damn-what-anyone-thinks-of-me attitude and they live life the way they want and trust me on this,they are "the" happy creatures of my life(touchwood to that).
I too,originally,belong to the like category of these two marvellous people but lately,I have been a little too careful,to an extent that I forget that life is beautiful and has to be lived only once.,probably because I've started living away from my family now and that my near and dear have so acutely made me cognizant of the incidents that take place every now and then ,especially those related to girls,in Delhi.Adding further,It eventually matters to me what people around me think of me or what do I do to make them think that I am better than what they think of me.
Deep down I know exactly what I am,my nature,my thinking,everything and I believe I am a little too good and a lot sensitive person and posses a weak heart.Keeping my modesty intact,I believe my nature is the best thing about me.:D It's like a better,old version of me is fading away superseded by the new one. One precise reason behind this,what I think is moving to Delhi and leaving Lucknow.
At first place,everything seemed so new to me,Delhi is far more different from Lucknow.Secondly,some unfortunate past events that had a major effect on me.Thirdly,a year gap between school and college made me dull(SO,I would love to suggest that think TWICE,before dropping a year and do not stay ideal even if you take a gap,it has adverse effects,well it did have one on me though)And fourthly,I probably have it somewhere in me,to strive and impress but,.in the end,its the real me who makes people love me..But everyone goes through this period at some point of time,why did it had to affect me..?
All I want is to go back to the time when I didn't have to make an effort to do crazy things around me,when I didn't think much as to what the other person would think or react or how he would interpret if I say something to him,what if it offended him/her or made him/her think otherwise. Why is it so hard for me to understand now that I am responsible only for what I say to them and what I mean by saying that and not for what the other person understands. How hard it is to speak out my mind and support anything and everything that I believe is right ? Why is this fear arising within me to think twice before speaking to someone and keeping my mouth shut even when I feel bad or offended by the gesture of the other person.This isn't me at first place.
It is really important for me to live by my own vision and stand up for myself and my kins. So here I am,in my blogosphere(the word,shamelessly stolen from Vinati..:P) making a promise to myself to get back and be myself again that I used to be before..to love myself the way I am..Why would I want to be smebody I am not.? It equally applies to all of you out there who feel the same way. Love yourself,your face,your body and your personality.YOU wouldn't be you without them. If anyone talks awful about you or acts atrociously,you stick your middle finger and say screw it..!! It only means that you are better than them anytime..My happiness won't depend on anyone,anymore..except for people who deserve to be with me and with whom I want to live my life with..Don't forget to love yourself..love your imperfections,your flaws,they make you..they make me..And guess what>.>I just found out one thing about me,that ME is pretty wonderful..:)
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