Moon Child

You are the extraordinary silver,
amongst the ordinary stars of mine.
And I am the dark influx
rising and falling,
at your whimsical aspirations.

I wait for you to bless me
with your astounding glory,
every night.
As you work your magic
and pull me closer.
and then,
push me away.
with a smile.

As if,
an invisible string,
a silken thread,
of stringent faith,
binds us together.

And then you retreat 
as the dawn arrives,
with a promise
to come back again,
and play with my heart

But amidst all the
games and tricks you play,
this love, 
I have for you,
grows with each passing 
day and every incoming night.

Love me wise.
Love me tender.

For my moon,
You and I 
are connected.

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Like A Fearless Bird, I Will Fly

It was a long, deep slumber.

Like I told you before,
let me sleep for however long I wish. 
Don't call out to me.
Don't be worried.
Let me hold the pain in me.
Let it settle deep in my skin.
Whispering in your ears
to leave me high,I told you,
for when I wake up
I'll let you see,the stronger me. 
And now you see me
replacing the pain with love.
Holding my head high,
and smiling at the new sky.
I wanted to be asleep for a while.
My ribs were the cage
meant to be broken, 
for my heart had to be set free.
To feel the trickle of one love
that was never meant to be.
To burn myself to ashes,
only then I knew I could rise,
from being nothing to
all that I really wanted to be.
And so today
I rise, again, 
to never look back 
and never let them break, 
my soul and beliefs. 
New hope is here. 
Look,
It's a new dawn.
It's a new bird 
I see it soaring high
And now I know, it's no one else 
But I.
I, who would last when the apocalypse strikes, 
For my deep slumber woke me up to see who I really was, 
Fearless, 
is who I am and will be.

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Barot, You Beauty.

Have you ever had those days when everything about your life makes you want to escape it and go to a place far away from all the hue and cry and drama that's been getting on your nerves? Well, I have had my share of chagrin in the past few months and after a constant chase between going for it or not, I threw my clothes in a bag and took off to ISBT to board a bus and leave for the first hill station that hits my mind. After a hell lot brain storming (not really) I finally got into the bus for Manali and came cross this yet another spellbinding hamlet prospering in the laps of the majestic Himalayas called Barot.

With a population of not more than a thousand, this little place is settled amid wilderness with kangra valley on one side and Mandi on the other, divided by the pristine Uhl river that is the most beautiful attribute of the whole village.

Though it took more than 12 hours to reach the place and tiredness was dripping from every inch of my body  yet as soon as the cool mountain air touched my skin, my worn out self was replaced by a much more refreshing persona. I was engrossed now, cherishing the undeniable beauty of this yet another treasure of the Himalayas.

The bus from ISBT dropped me off at Mandi Bus Stop around 10 in the morning and after necessary inquiry I took a bus for Ghatasni. Another bus would have dropped me off at Barot directly but it was scheduled for 2 p.m and I didn't want to wait for another 4 hours. I took the bus and it was one heck of a ride. All the bumps and bruises were on my head and back were the result of this ride. I was dropped at Ghatasni and from there I took a cab which cost me 200 bucks and tada finally I witnessed beauty in its truest sense. Barot, you have my heart.

                                         

                                             

                                     

Recognizing the full worth of the little hamlet, I strolled through every inch and corner of this village and enjoyed a little chat with adorable people there who called this little Himalayan treasure their home. I stayed at Sachin's and got a family room because the single rooms were all booked. It cost me 600 bucks without food. There was nothing much to do there except for appreciating the beauty of the place. Sitting by the Uhl river was the most amazing. Lohardi, another village organized a kind of mela and someone suggested me to not miss the fare. I went there and the weather there was as amazing as one can imagine. After spending an hour or two I came down to Barot. There was also a natural spring by the river that caught my attention. The picture would explain what fun it was to make my way there, also because it was a segregated area and was absolutely dreamy. The water was also held through a damn of which I did not inquire much because my whole attention was towards the silvery water of the gushing Uhl river and what a beauty it was.

                                       

Food in the village was also delicious and was not very costly too. I had proper Indian breakfast in the day and chicken crusted plate for dinner. The simplicity and honesty of the people from the hills have always charmed me. And people here were no less. One instance being I ordered egg noodles for myself and could not eat even half of it. The kind owner of the restaurant charged only half the amount. I insisted though but he did not take it. Such warm people.

One thing I love to mention, every time when I write about the hills is the bewitching nights. The twinkling stars that give an impression of falling from the sky any minute because they seem so close from the hills. I can gaze at them all through the night and I tend to not fall asleep when in the hills. Because I don't want to miss the nights in the Himalayas. Such beautiful thing it is to witness the beauty of the pearly white moon and pretty little stars, oh I can just watch them over and over.

So this was all about Barot. I would suggest you to visit the place only if you want to have a relaxing time away from the hustle and bustle of city life. If this is what you are looking for, then Barot should definitely be on your list.

Windchimes.

I kept dancing to the tunes
that faded long ago.
I waited for the song to revive
and fill my soul with light,
once more.
I woke up every day
with a hope to conquer
the unfinished goodbyes
but every night
this unique symphony
played in my dreams,
the song about the one long gone.

Little whispers of that outstanding voice,

held me tight all through the night.
It chased my mind and captured my heart
but parched away,
with each morning light.
That quintessential music.
It left me wanting more,
all through the night, 
in my dreams, 
it left me wanting more.
When in reality,
all I could hear was
the impish wind
frolicking with the beguiling
windchimes. 

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The Storyteller

Her once upon a time
had a happy ending
Until
He became the story
She, the storyteller.

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He

I don't know if it's right or wrong 
or may be I do
but the scent of his shirt 
and the glitter in his eyes 
makes me lose my mind
Every single time.

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Her.

Her eyes burned with water
while heart was on fire
but that never stopped her 
from carving his thoughts out of her mind.
And chasing his memories away from her heart.
For he never understood her worth
and her kind of love.
For his words made her essence bleed.
For she finally gave up on him and went away.
For she fell in love with somebody else.
A love far more divine
A love called Her.
The love for Her.

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Mirage

You were the illusion that darted me back to reality.

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Rain in the Mountains

Rain in the mountains
erasing kohl off her eyes
The breeze blew away her hair.
The water settled down
deep in her skin.
The clouds rattled above her body
upon her soul
and inside my heart.
I still remember,
that rain in the mountains,
her moistened cold skin
&
the kohl in her eyes
the last memory
her last memory.

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It's Just a Phase.

That's what they tell me. People. I want to believe them. But I kind of hope they're wrong. It's just a phase, isn't it? So what if it's been a little more than a few months. Life's been better but it's been bad. I laugh out loud and then suddenly a trickle of sadness runs through my vein. I feel free and yet I'm bounded by a few reasons, unknown yet acknowledged.

I've stopped thinking sanely. Why should I? What's the point? I'm young and I had never been stupid or done something outrageous before. But I did something now and it feels so right. I have always been someone who was liked by everyone. Loved by a few. Liked by all. I've been good. A little shy but really good. I never thought I had it in me. Unleashing my other side. I'm liking it but I want to hate it. The other side. It's just a phase. I hope it is but I believe otherwise. I'm young and I want to be wild. Atleast for a while. I'm standing up for myself. I'm falling in and out of love. I don't know what or who I want. I don't know if the person I want in my life, wants me the same way and I'm too scared to ask.

 Life is about to change in a few months. College is coming to an end and I have no friggin' idea what's next? I wanted to leave college so bad and now when the time is near I don't want to go. Such is this life. It just does things to you. I'm happy. I'm scared. I'm satisfied but I want more.I don't know. I just don't know. Not yet.

I think I miss this person. I wish I could write down the name. I can't. I don't know what happened. What did I do or what life did? World's upside down and am loving it. I want to figure it all out but somehow I want things to remain exactly how they are right now.But I gotta make a decision . Gotta figure out life.
It's just a phase. Isn't it? I'll figure it out. Right. But for now I certainly hope that may this phase last forever. Forever and after.

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Scars

The world around me spun
and yet they walked away
Their eyes closed.
And souls shut.
Nothing was left behind
other than
a little scar in my heart
a little guilt in theirs.

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Candles.

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Blazing bright flames

glimmering white candles

fabulous yellow

a shade of joy.
Do you see?
How blithely,
it explodes across the darkness?
Radiant and evanescent
like a poignant dream
it melts away with after glow.
So unwind the string,
and dance away with glee.
For the light may fade
but memories shall stay.

Cravings.

I tell you
it isn't for you to read
and I already see the irony
lurking in the shadow.
Wryly amazing.
Or is it just you
reckless yet curious?

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Fiction Of Dreams V. Existence Of Reality

*Eyes wide shut*

Strolling around a whimsical meadow,

losing  the soul into its fragrance.

Bolting out of a carnival,

based on bizarre strangeness.

Set amidst the silvery moon

A monstrous ,kinky ranch

An old, scary lady ogles

a giant-like tree leaning towards,

In a twist, dancing under the monsoon

Blithesome-care free.

And again,

rolling in the dune

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*Eyes Wide Open*,

Sincerely,

tumbled upon own thoughts,

rise up, bewildered.

Nudged into the presence of certainty,

tasting back the bitter/sweet reality.

Profusely,

Pull out to legitimate life.

Plagued, provoked, satisfied or pleased

Annoyed, gratified, soothed or angry.

_______________

*Eyes open-shut*,

Sluggishly,

Inexplicable emotions,

juggling in and out,

Wanted-unwanted thoughts,

roaming around.

And soon, taken over,

by the unfathomable,

Unmeasured journey

Of  Illusion. J

I'll be a madcap,I'll be crazy,I'll be care-free,how does it make any difference to anyone after all..?

It's a salty curse that no matter how much you try to make people around you happy and satisfied with the kind of a person you are,no matter how or what all you give in or give up for their sake,in the end,they find one or the other avenue to detest you.


Well,it's nobody's fault  because it's the human tendency..it's an inclination to think in a certain way.Hmmmm.. frustrating,isn't it? And I strongly believe that the best way to overcome this accustomed behaviour by the elements around us is to remain unbothered-blithesome-care-free. Having a happy-go-lucky persona really helps. I can say this because two very close people to me maintain this I-don't give-a- damn-what-anyone-thinks-of-me attitude and they live life the way they want and trust me on this,they are "the" happy creatures of my life(touchwood to that).


I too,originally,belong to the like category of these two marvellous people but lately,I have been a little too careful,to an extent that I forget that life is beautiful and has to be lived only once.,probably because I've started living away from my family now and that my near and dear have so acutely made me cognizant of the incidents that take place every now and then ,especially those related to girls,in Delhi.Adding further,It eventually matters to me what people around me think of me or what do I do to make them think that I am better than what they think of me.


Deep down I know exactly what I am,my nature,my thinking,everything and I believe I am a little too good and a lot sensitive person and posses a weak heart.Keeping my modesty intact,I believe my nature is the best thing about me.:D It's like a better,old version of me is fading away superseded by the new one. One precise reason behind this,what I think is moving to Delhi and leaving Lucknow.


At first place,everything seemed so new to me,Delhi is far more different from Lucknow.Secondly,some unfortunate past events that had a major effect on me.Thirdly,a year gap between school and college made me dull(SO,I would love to suggest that think TWICE,before dropping a year and do not stay ideal even if you take a gap,it has adverse effects,well it did have one on me though)And fourthly,I probably have it somewhere in me,to strive and impress but,.in the end,its the real me who makes people love me..But everyone goes through this period at some point of time,why did it had to affect me..?


 All I want is to go back to the time when I didn't have to make an effort to do crazy things around me,when I didn't think much as to what the other person would think or react or how he would interpret if I say something to him,what if it offended him/her or made him/her think otherwise. Why is it so hard for me to understand now that I am responsible only for what I say to them and what I mean by saying that and not for what the other person understands. How hard  it is to speak out my mind and support anything and everything that I believe is right ? Why is this fear arising within me to think twice before speaking to someone and keeping my mouth shut even when I feel bad or offended by the gesture of the other person.This isn't me at first place.


It is really important for me to live by my own vision and stand up for myself and my kins. So here I am,in my blogosphere(the word,shamelessly stolen from Vinati..:P) making a promise to myself to get back and be myself again that I used to be before..to love myself the way I am..Why would I want to be smebody I am not.? It equally applies to all of you out there who feel the same way. Love yourself,your face,your body and your personality.YOU wouldn't be you without them. If anyone talks awful about you or acts atrociously,you stick your middle finger and say screw it..!! It only means that you are better than them anytime..My happiness won't depend on anyone,anymore..except for people who deserve to be with me and with whom I want to live my life with..Don't forget to love yourself..love your imperfections,your flaws,they make you..they make me..And guess what>.>I just found out one thing about me,that ME is pretty wonderful..:)

A Supernatural Vision..

   All supernatural stories hold an unending fascination for me..for I've always been the most excited(curious) one of the lot..showcasing myself as the most intrepid,dauntless,fire-eating creature that you would ever come across,all prepared and organised for hearing,listening,understanding the stories,happenings,events,folklore involving supernatural "beings"that were pulled out of their realm from a vortex.

I got no reason to have this inclination towards such supernatural activities..yet since forever I am into reading,understanding and researching the related stuff..always trying to figure out the little or more truth behind this transcendental,mystical and uncanny world of phantoms,ghostts,vampires and werewolves,spring heeled jack,zombies,witches,banshee,mummies,angels,demons,Prime mover God..the list doesn't just end here for me..And I know I am not the only one here who is interested in discovering the truth behind such celestial or infernal activities..I know I'm not alone in this because there seem to be an unending movies and books written about the preternatural.

The fact of the matter,which I,along with my bro(while we were brattling about this issue,the other day)came upto was that there was an origin of one or more occult/mystical character in every century..which rose to recognition in the very age/century/time..For instance,Vampire-Werewolves related cases were popularised in the early 18th century..succeeding 17th century which was curb by the sagacious witches and banshees,In 19th century.it was the spring heeled jack and I am sure many of you wouldnt know much about him so here's to say that he was known for his startling jumps..used to scare people away..and since 20th century it's been aliens and ghosts(well,ghosts and spirits have been a matter of discussion for all times..and also for the reason that people mostly associate paranormal or supernatural with ghosts.spirits and haunting..well there's more to the term SUPERNATURAL..than this)

Talking about cherubic and miraculous otherworldly beings..Well then I believe that there is this power that makes the world go..balances the nature..looks after us beings..and controls life and birth cycle..We know that power as God,Allah,Jesus,Almighty,Creator,Father,Divine being,Jehovah,Bhagwan.

                                              

One question that always pops out of my mind is What happens after death..Will ever anyone still ALIVE be able to correspond to this question with proper justification and authentication ..or  crack the truth behind this mind boggling question,as I say.....??

Nobody knows the answer to such questions..Then why do these questions exist in this vast,gigantic Universe..If the answers to them do not exist?? There has got to be some answer to  this entangled complexity..as my weird vein believes that every question has an answer..this unearthly,abstruse,dark and hidden mystery also must have one..

I know it wouldn't really bother much to people as such issue is considered as simple fables or folk stories..but it's the wonderful weirdos like  me who believe in giving their brain some strain and make a difference..hehehe..:D

The incidents related to ghosts,spirits and aliens are still very much talked about..and scientists all over the world have the faith about the existence of other creatures apart from humans from eart and in a sense it can be true because there are zillions of galaxies and umpteen planets..Life must exist in any of these..

The thing is to find out..bring out whether it's  true or not..because till the the present or past existence of  supernatural and paranormality isn't proved..with accuracy and authneticity,The question always remains the same.....Truth or Falsehood..Real Or Myth...??