Mirage

You were the illusion that darted me back to reality.

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Rain in the Mountains

Rain in the mountains
erasing kohl off her eyes
The breeze blew away her hair.
The water settled down
deep in her skin.
The clouds rattled above her body
upon her soul
and inside my heart.
I still remember,
that rain in the mountains,
her moistened cold skin
&
the kohl in her eyes
the last memory
her last memory.

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It's Just a Phase.

That's what they tell me. People. I want to believe them. But I kind of hope they're wrong. It's just a phase, isn't it? So what if it's been a little more than a few months. Life's been better but it's been bad. I laugh out loud and then suddenly a trickle of sadness runs through my vein. I feel free and yet I'm bounded by a few reasons, unknown yet acknowledged.

I've stopped thinking sanely. Why should I? What's the point? I'm young and I had never been stupid or done something outrageous before. But I did something now and it feels so right. I have always been someone who was liked by everyone. Loved by a few. Liked by all. I've been good. A little shy but really good. I never thought I had it in me. Unleashing my other side. I'm liking it but I want to hate it. The other side. It's just a phase. I hope it is but I believe otherwise. I'm young and I want to be wild. Atleast for a while. I'm standing up for myself. I'm falling in and out of love. I don't know what or who I want. I don't know if the person I want in my life, wants me the same way and I'm too scared to ask.

 Life is about to change in a few months. College is coming to an end and I have no friggin' idea what's next? I wanted to leave college so bad and now when the time is near I don't want to go. Such is this life. It just does things to you. I'm happy. I'm scared. I'm satisfied but I want more.I don't know. I just don't know. Not yet.

I think I miss this person. I wish I could write down the name. I can't. I don't know what happened. What did I do or what life did? World's upside down and am loving it. I want to figure it all out but somehow I want things to remain exactly how they are right now.But I gotta make a decision . Gotta figure out life.
It's just a phase. Isn't it? I'll figure it out. Right. But for now I certainly hope that may this phase last forever. Forever and after.

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Scars

The world around me spun
and yet they walked away
Their eyes closed.
And souls shut.
Nothing was left behind
other than
a little scar in my heart
a little guilt in theirs.

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The Unexpected

"But why"?
"What ?"
"No, I mean, every other girl that I see there is like totally hot or pretty with amazing body, flawless skin, perfect pout and dark kohl-ed eyes. I thought I was almost invisible, no, I mean I genuinely believe that. I'm nothing. I don't even know how to put on make up or wear clothes in vogue. And you, you are everywhere. I never thought I'd ever talk to you or any other guy in college for that matter. Why me? Why did you even talk to me. I mean I just don't ge--"


"Because you're the only real thing I see in college. "

Love is not a Choice, Acceptance is.

Of all the gushing emotions
the spritz of true love
runs wild & free.
Meandering through a sinless soul
like a drenched fantasy,
it drowns inside the throbbing heart.
The heart, a whispering abyss, a frantic frenzy.
Untamed yet content.
Guilty yet absolved.
Like a game of fire & ice
the reality of love truly resides
where the acceptance is.

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This feels GOOOODDD !!

Well, it came as a surprise but now that I have absorbed this feeling...I AM ECSTATIC ! All thanks to my blogger friend Juhi who writes magic at ShihtZoo for nominating Split Strings for the Liebster Award. And I respectfully ACCEPT it. :)You write some pretty amazing stuff there Juhi. Keep up the good work .I know you will. Once again, thank you for the appreciation.

The Liebster Award Official Rules:

If you have been nominated for The Liebster Award AND YOU CHOOSE TO ACCEPT IT, write a blog post about the Liebster award in which you:

1. Thank the person who nominated you, and post a link to their blog on your blog.

2. Display the award on your blog — by including it in your post and/or displaying it using a “widget” or a “gadget”. (Note that the best way to do this is to save the image to your own computer and then upload it to your blog post.)

3. Answer 11 questions about yourself, which will be provided to you by the person who nominated you.

4. Provide 11 random facts about yourself.

5. Nominate 5 – 11 blogs that you feel deserve the award, who have a less than 1000 followers. (Note that you can always ask the blog owner this since not all blogs display a widget that lets the readers know this information!)

6. Create a new list of questions for the blogger to answer.

7. List these rules in your post (You can copy and paste from here.) Once you have written and published it, you then have to:

8. Inform the people/blogs that you nominated that they have been nominated for the Liebster award and provide a link for them to your post so that they can learn about it (they might not have ever heard of it!)

MY ANSWERS TO JUHI'S QUESTIONS:

1.your secret obsession?

is to travel and travel a lot. It's not a secret though. :P

2. your favourite smell?

Smell of the wet Earth.

3.what inspires you to write a post?

I once had a friend, she did.

4.what is your therapy to get through the lows of your life?

Jot it all down in black and white.

5.one destination you have dreamt of visiting?

I want to travel the world. Every corner of it. But if I have to pick one, that'd be Australia.

6.do you think love gives way to reality?

Absolutely !

7.what do you love getting as gifts?

Anything hand made.

8.given a chance to undo a mistake would you do it or leave it as it is?

I'll undo it, definitely ! I'm pretty sure leaving it as it is will make me regret it again.

9.what do you like to blog the most about?

Poems. Yes.

10.what is the craziest thing you have ever done?

Umm..slapping someone amidst a busy road.

11.what is the biggest dream for you right now?

Stop being angry at myself and get to know the person I truly am.

I put forth the same questions as Juhi's to my nominated blogger friends.

11 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

My family means everything to me.

I want to travel the world. I can travel my whole life.

I don't have a best friend. The one and only best friend I had was when I was 17. We were BF's for 17 years.

I over think the shit out of life.

I've been a crazy Brett Lee aka Binga fan for about 11 years and was recently invited to meet him at certain event. He's gorgeous, if you may ask. *_*

I'm a law student but I've figured out that my heart lies in writing and travelling ! And I almost believe that a career in law is not right for me.

I'm a very honest person.

I don't believe in the concept of marriage or having kids.

I can watch re runs and re runs of Full House.

All I seek is happiness and peace. 

The best of me is yet to come.

I WOULD LIKE TO NOMINATE THE FOLLOWING TALENTED BLOGGERS FOR THE LIEBSTER AWARD

Sadia Khan of Crescendoing Silence

Tanya Sehgal of Coveted Dreams

Valli of Poety-Reflection of My Feelings

Sabeeha of Midnight Scribbles
Prateek of Me and My Dark Side.

That's all folks !  :)

In a Whirlwind of Emotions.

So I've learned to sit with myself. Being away from home,I sat by myself before, a lot, sure yeah but now I have LEARNED to sit with myself....thanks to these past few weeks( read years). I wake up in the middle of a night and I feel sick...I know I'm spinning..my head is..that's my sinus talking. First thought that hits me every morning when  I wake up is of getting up without hurting myself due to the 'chakkars' that may or may not pay a visit. 

I think I've cried a lot...still there's a monstrous pain hiding somewhere deep within..that refuses to come out.I hate sharing my thoughts, emotions or anything like with anyone..actually I'd love to share but I hate explaining...explaining thyself is tough especially when you aren't yourself very sure of what's bugging you. And when I do..I'm at my worst..I'm ugly..not many have seen this ugly that sleeps somewhere within this otherwise a happy girl next door. And probably most of the time..the person closest to my heart suffers a LOT due to this outburst of emotions that comes out in a rather pathetic way. 

I have been a part of a hell lot of negativity too for past few years...but then there were some amazingly true and kind people in my life too...and I love them with the bottom of my heart ..and I loved a few who never deserved an iota of me ! Well, have finally dusted away them all and I'm blissfully left with all those who bring nothing but happiness and peace in life. But there's a pain..a monster..that pulls me back in time..or this abyss that is full of nothing but darkness. It's just sad. I want to get out of it and never come back but it overpowers me to a limit that makes me drive my head against the wall.
Nonchalantly, it gets me closer to the ultimate sin of envy..jealousy..discontentment..of all the stupid things I can think of. I need to find a way to stop it from growing on me...I must and I will.

I overthink. I think this is the monster. I'm overthinking the shit out of life. Yes. I'm trying to get a grip but very honestly speaking, I fail everytime..but I'm not giving up..not yet.I think this and a kind heart is what makes me a beautiful person ..yes. I know I will get over it too. Why? Because I'll always have you dear blog to listen and understand me wayyy better than people...well I want to share stuff here...this is my escape and I'm glad I'm here.*smiles* 

I think even a hundred pages would fall short of bringing out the tornado that's been taking place inside of me but nobody will and should help me get out of this weirdly dissatisfying situation. I hope I feel better as soon as I finish this post and go back to bed tonight. It's 2 A.M already. 

Amidst all this unending mess of emotions and apprehensions there's one thing I happily want to share...it's my new found love for painting..I've only started days back and I need to learn a lot...but I find it extremely fulfilling. Hopefully I'll start taking guitar lessons soon..that's been on my list forever.

I hope my next post would be much more joyous and gleeful. I feel better atleast for now. Thank you dear blog you did it again. Today is a new day. Today is THE new day. So I'll let the sun shine and dance in my favourite shoes and smile because that makes me & the world beautiful. Speaking of being happy here's a happy song that made past few days a little better for me..Enjoy if you're having a hard day too.

P.S- *Words*- You're my best friend. :)

The Happy Song

1

Stay Strong 

Dear Blog..:)

Candles.

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Blazing bright flames

glimmering white candles

fabulous yellow

a shade of joy.
Do you see?
How blithely,
it explodes across the darkness?
Radiant and evanescent
like a poignant dream
it melts away with after glow.
So unwind the string,
and dance away with glee.
For the light may fade
but memories shall stay.

70 Things That We Learn in Our 20's.

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1.Apartment living robs you. Renting a small house with the girls is the way to go. 

2. Wine > vodka.

3. Leggings = life made.

4. Roommates are great to try recipes out on.

5. Disney movies will never get old.

6. Cheaters are not worth it.

7. Go the speed limit. Tickets are the worst.

8. Sometimes all you need is ice-cream or pizza.

9. Your friends were there for you before the boyfriend.

10. Tell your family you love them as much as possible.

11. Drinking & driving is not worth it.

12. Mexican hole-in-the-wall restaurants have the best margaritas.

13. You’ll fail a couple of times. It’s okay, I promise.

14. If you need help with money, ask, don’t continue to struggle.

15. Not everyone is going to like you.

16. Men’s razors work better.

17. Vote, but know exactly what you’re voting for.

18. When you need guidance, read your Bible.

19. If you think a dress is too short, it is.

20. Bubble baths aren’t just for toddlers.

21. Nanny or babysit regularly, it’s great practice.

22. You can never have too many shoes.

23. Stand up for your beliefs. They’re not stupid.

24. Sometimes you just need to cry.

25. Watch the news, read a blog, learn about the world.

26. Traveling is the best money you can spend.

27. Drink at least 2 glasses of water before going to bed if you were drinking.

28. Love is patient. Love is kind.

29. Being a bridesmaid is expensive. Save.

30. Exercise. Your health is everything.

31. If he cares, he’ll call.

32. Not everyone needs to know what you’re doing on Facebook.

33. Nude heels go with everything.

34. Wait to get a dog, they’re a lot of work.

35. Wait to have kids.

36. Use sunscreen. Sunspots and wrinkly skin isn’t worth a temporary tan.

37. Moisturize!

38. Sleepy time tea before bed… it’s surprisingly nice and relaxing.

39. Get in the best shape of your life — you’re in your prime!

40. Life is just better with coffee.

41. Set goals and actually try to reach them.

42. Smile more.

43. Judge less.

44. Compliment the beauty in others.

45. Nagging pushes you further away from those you actually care about.

46. Nice guys > Jerks (Big time !!)

47. Never lose touch with your siblings and cousins.

48. Remember to call mom, but don’t forget to call dad.

49. Do something for others.  Tithe, volunteer, give a gift to someone in need…

50. Being single isn’t the worst thing in the world.

51. Guys HATE high-waisted jean shorts.

52. My mom was right… about everything.

53. Whattaburger’s honey butter chicken biscuits are the best food after a night of drinking.

54. Treat others how you’d like to be treated.

55. Set your alarm, and actually get up.

56. The real world can be really mean.

57. Crafting soothes the soul.

58. Dance… who cares if you “can’t.”

59. God’s timing is perfect.

60. Put your phone down and live a little.

61. Forgive.

62. Spoil yourself with new lingerie.

63. Duck face is not cute.

64. Remember to take pictures.

65. College was made for finding bridesmaids.

66. Exes typically always want you back…eventually.

67. Exes are NOT worth taking back.

68. You’re only in your 20s for 10 years.

69. Men love classy ladies.

70. Glorify God… live to make Him happy.. 

The above post was originally shared on Thought Catalog. I just loved it and thought to put it on Split Strings too!Learn if you think you should..well, eventually you will anyway...Have a happy read. xD

Cravings.

I tell you
it isn't for you to read
and I already see the irony
lurking in the shadow.
Wryly amazing.
Or is it just you
reckless yet curious?

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Maroon.

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Crisp yellow pages
countless words
brimming emotions
untainted confessions
marooned thoughts
letters unsent
& a withered red rose.
Like a souvenir
those unfeigned musings,
adhered to her little maroon chronicle.
Her little maroon chronicle,
the time travelling hipster,
a kaleidoscope of memories.

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-----Sometimes all it takes is a diary to make you realize who you really are.

A Love Beyond Compare.

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Those tiny fingers
a purified smile.
Newborn.
The uncorrupt soul.
Even so,
A mother's heart
is the most innocent.


 
I Love You Ma.

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Perfume.

In silence,
I followed
your exquisite scent.
That one of a kind
fresh floral !
Look !
how quickly,
it healed
my broken soul.

.
.
.
.

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Stardust.

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A little space.
Ravenous silence.
No words.
Not a minute to waste.
The musical river
shimmers like a diamond,
cascading down the ivory crown,
The Himalayas---
the glimmering silver medal.

Chasing fireflies

in the land made of stardust.
Witnessing the beauty of--
the pearly old moon,
with a bright touch of heaven.
A night under the dark blanket
and a handful of stars.
Amidst the undisturbed wilderness--
they were three in count.
A free spirit
Her fanatical heart,
and  her replenished--
 ----freedom.

#50th Post. :D

Twist of Fate

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Falling into nothingness 
Desperate hopes
High on error
Low in zeal 
Cuddling with
this inane vapidness.

Out of the blue
Life,
this ruthless life
played its song
and I, like a mere puppet,
am dancing along.

A Beautiful Strange Mind.

                             

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Falling in a trance,
a mirthless enamor.
Glimmering light,
fading music,
and She,
like an open book
revealed
the unforgettable brittleness of life.
Drowned sorrows & withheld emotions
now vigilantly,
perched upon
her golden silence.
Riveting spaces
Words, unguarded.
the nakedness of thoughts
& her translucent soul.
A blemish on the heart
a sliver of tear,
the unfulfilled yearning,
and it was traced,
her beauty spot.
The day came
the light shone and she woke up with a smile
that he known
but now he knew the matter in the deep
that slays her heart but she stands steep
and so he walked with her to the moon and back
and she knew her worth as he held her tight
For he knew the bruised she had been through
and he became the guard between the atrocities of the world and her soft heart.







-------Nothing in the world can bother you as much as your own mind.

A Very Special Birthday Wish.

A playful smirk,sky-high height that sticks out amidst a bunch of people, that exotic complexion which must have made so many ladies go weak on their knees *_* and some cryptic, inscrutable emotion that's been salted away in an abyss--These were few of your many attributes that I could recollect as I finally settle down to splash out my wishes for your special Birthday. I know I'm a little late doing that ( Thanks to you..:P ) but I'll make sure that this one makes to the list of the best b'day wishes you've ever received..*Govinda styled wink*.
So without any further delay, here it goes,


Happy Happy Birthday To You, Divyaansh !
May God bless you with each and everything you desire in life.

After so many awkward meetings and a few incredible whatsapp conversations (Cricketwala is my favorite...:D) you've finally made it to the list of MY people. Hence, this post.*fist bump to you*. ^_^

I cannot thank that amazing person enough for introducing me to you and even though we aren't that close friends, I've always felt some kind of superlative connection with you from the very beginning of these years. Having you and all around is always a delight..well, my face clearly shows that, doesn't it?

Believe it or not but this is a fact that I WILL visit Australia..soon.. someday..obviously but here's the thing if I could take only and only 3 guys along with me, YOU will be one of them three I would love to tag along with me. Hands down. No kidding.NOW THIS IS BIG ! Well, now you know how much I love you. ^_^ 

Hope we could be way too better friends than what we have right now. Even so, there are far far amazing, stunning, shocking and startling events waiting to for us to unwind. So many days to wander off and getting wasted, nights to share the spine chilling horror stories, UNO sessions, trip to GOA and so many other wonderful places .

I just want you to know that you're going to be one very successful and the happiest person someday. The day would come soon. Inshallah ! The road might look a little bumpy now but once you get through it, there's always a smooth sailing. There are far better things ahead than any we leave behind. Remember, when life gives you a lemon,you add a thread and seven chillies to it and hang it on your vehicle. ( Lame I know..:D)


May 1st of February be always as special to you as this Birthday wish. :D And remember you aren't growing any older..just getting a little more distinguished. ( someone very intelligent who was  once upon a time also very close to me, told me that.... I'm sharing it with you..:) I think that's one thought to cherish for life.

Once again a very Happy Birthday to You..:)
I'm glad I wrote this down..Thank you[You know why ;)] 
I mean every word of the post.
I'm a very very honest friend. :D ( Now that I've bragged a thing about me..this post is complete. *does the disco dance*)
I hated it when you didn't stay for my birthday..it's okay though.
I'm the bestest friend you can ever have...heck anyone can everrrrrr have.( 100% true !)
Mai TREAT ki haqdaar hu is baar..! 


There are still a trillion things to say to you but I'll sum it up in three magical words..ummm..Where's the party? Ye question Mayank ki side se bhi aya hai....@_@
PARTYYYY CHAIYEE...PAARTTTTYYYYY......PARRTTYYY..PAARRTTTYYYY...xD



Keep smiling always...:D
Loads of love and affection for you.

The Most Important Person of Your Life, * head held up high*
Me. B)

The only normal pic that I could find of ours.. I love this one though. :D

Rise Above the Horizon

The shining glory
awaits,
a broken shell
a giant leap
unfettered wings
a majestic grandeur
forging ahead,
a knight in the armor.

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Shattered ? Not Today.

Rain drops pitching down the window
In a blink,
stumbled upon her faded lashes.

Whispers screeching through silent ears
in the veil of grey choir.
danced upon the melancholic heart.

A night wide awake.
A room cold and dark.
A sudden flutter,
smashed her world like a pack of cards


Beneath the starless crown she froze,
From sparkling to crispy toned
sleep in those eyes never played close.
Suddenly,
Pushing away the murky clouds,
a shaft of light arose.

Looking beyond the darkness above,
that blurry sight caught her attention.
Draped her with elation.
Improved her vision.
Darted her out of illusion.

Crimson lips gave away the light.
Shrugging away the tears,
Oh yes ! She smiled.
Her firm vow----
Shattered?
No, not her way of life.
Not today !
Not ever !