Moon Child

You are the extraordinary silver,
amongst the ordinary stars of mine.
And I am the dark influx
rising and falling,
at your whimsical aspirations.

I wait for you to bless me
with your astounding glory,
every night.
As you work your magic
and pull me closer.
and then,
push me away.
with a smile.

As if,
an invisible string,
a silken thread,
of stringent faith,
binds us together.

And then you retreat 
as the dawn arrives,
with a promise
to come back again,
and play with my heart

But amidst all the
games and tricks you play,
this love, 
I have for you,
grows with each passing 
day and every incoming night.

Love me wise.
Love me tender.

For my moon,
You and I 
are connected.

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Like A Fearless Bird, I Will Fly

It was a long, deep slumber.

Like I told you before,
let me sleep for however long I wish. 
Don't call out to me.
Don't be worried.
Let me hold the pain in me.
Let it settle deep in my skin.
Whispering in your ears
to leave me high,I told you,
for when I wake up
I'll let you see,the stronger me. 
And now you see me
replacing the pain with love.
Holding my head high,
and smiling at the new sky.
I wanted to be asleep for a while.
My ribs were the cage
meant to be broken, 
for my heart had to be set free.
To feel the trickle of one love
that was never meant to be.
To burn myself to ashes,
only then I knew I could rise,
from being nothing to
all that I really wanted to be.
And so today
I rise, again, 
to never look back 
and never let them break, 
my soul and beliefs. 
New hope is here. 
Look,
It's a new dawn.
It's a new bird 
I see it soaring high
And now I know, it's no one else 
But I.
I, who would last when the apocalypse strikes, 
For my deep slumber woke me up to see who I really was, 
Fearless, 
is who I am and will be.

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Rains.

stalked by rain

that fine dusky one
seeks shelter

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Windchimes.

I kept dancing to the tunes
that faded long ago.
I waited for the song to revive
and fill my soul with light,
once more.
I woke up every day
with a hope to conquer
the unfinished goodbyes
but every night
this unique symphony
played in my dreams,
the song about the one long gone.

Little whispers of that outstanding voice,

held me tight all through the night.
It chased my mind and captured my heart
but parched away,
with each morning light.
That quintessential music.
It left me wanting more,
all through the night, 
in my dreams, 
it left me wanting more.
When in reality,
all I could hear was
the impish wind
frolicking with the beguiling
windchimes. 

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He

I don't know if it's right or wrong 
or may be I do
but the scent of his shirt 
and the glitter in his eyes 
makes me lose my mind
Every single time.

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Her.

Her eyes burned with water
while heart was on fire
but that never stopped her 
from carving his thoughts out of her mind.
And chasing his memories away from her heart.
For he never understood her worth
and her kind of love.
For his words made her essence bleed.
For she finally gave up on him and went away.
For she fell in love with somebody else.
A love far more divine
A love called Her.
The love for Her.

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Mirage

You were the illusion that darted me back to reality.

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Rain in the Mountains

Rain in the mountains
erasing kohl off her eyes
The breeze blew away her hair.
The water settled down
deep in her skin.
The clouds rattled above her body
upon her soul
and inside my heart.
I still remember,
that rain in the mountains,
her moistened cold skin
&
the kohl in her eyes
the last memory
her last memory.

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It's Just a Phase.

That's what they tell me. People. I want to believe them. But I kind of hope they're wrong. It's just a phase, isn't it? So what if it's been a little more than a few months. Life's been better but it's been bad. I laugh out loud and then suddenly a trickle of sadness runs through my vein. I feel free and yet I'm bounded by a few reasons, unknown yet acknowledged.

I've stopped thinking sanely. Why should I? What's the point? I'm young and I had never been stupid or done something outrageous before. But I did something now and it feels so right. I have always been someone who was liked by everyone. Loved by a few. Liked by all. I've been good. A little shy but really good. I never thought I had it in me. Unleashing my other side. I'm liking it but I want to hate it. The other side. It's just a phase. I hope it is but I believe otherwise. I'm young and I want to be wild. Atleast for a while. I'm standing up for myself. I'm falling in and out of love. I don't know what or who I want. I don't know if the person I want in my life, wants me the same way and I'm too scared to ask.

 Life is about to change in a few months. College is coming to an end and I have no friggin' idea what's next? I wanted to leave college so bad and now when the time is near I don't want to go. Such is this life. It just does things to you. I'm happy. I'm scared. I'm satisfied but I want more.I don't know. I just don't know. Not yet.

I think I miss this person. I wish I could write down the name. I can't. I don't know what happened. What did I do or what life did? World's upside down and am loving it. I want to figure it all out but somehow I want things to remain exactly how they are right now.But I gotta make a decision . Gotta figure out life.
It's just a phase. Isn't it? I'll figure it out. Right. But for now I certainly hope that may this phase last forever. Forever and after.

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Scars

The world around me spun
and yet they walked away
Their eyes closed.
And souls shut.
Nothing was left behind
other than
a little scar in my heart
a little guilt in theirs.

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In a Whirlwind of Emotions.

So I've learned to sit with myself. Being away from home,I sat by myself before, a lot, sure yeah but now I have LEARNED to sit with myself....thanks to these past few weeks( read years). I wake up in the middle of a night and I feel sick...I know I'm spinning..my head is..that's my sinus talking. First thought that hits me every morning when  I wake up is of getting up without hurting myself due to the 'chakkars' that may or may not pay a visit. 

I think I've cried a lot...still there's a monstrous pain hiding somewhere deep within..that refuses to come out.I hate sharing my thoughts, emotions or anything like with anyone..actually I'd love to share but I hate explaining...explaining thyself is tough especially when you aren't yourself very sure of what's bugging you. And when I do..I'm at my worst..I'm ugly..not many have seen this ugly that sleeps somewhere within this otherwise a happy girl next door. And probably most of the time..the person closest to my heart suffers a LOT due to this outburst of emotions that comes out in a rather pathetic way. 

I have been a part of a hell lot of negativity too for past few years...but then there were some amazingly true and kind people in my life too...and I love them with the bottom of my heart ..and I loved a few who never deserved an iota of me ! Well, have finally dusted away them all and I'm blissfully left with all those who bring nothing but happiness and peace in life. But there's a pain..a monster..that pulls me back in time..or this abyss that is full of nothing but darkness. It's just sad. I want to get out of it and never come back but it overpowers me to a limit that makes me drive my head against the wall.
Nonchalantly, it gets me closer to the ultimate sin of envy..jealousy..discontentment..of all the stupid things I can think of. I need to find a way to stop it from growing on me...I must and I will.

I overthink. I think this is the monster. I'm overthinking the shit out of life. Yes. I'm trying to get a grip but very honestly speaking, I fail everytime..but I'm not giving up..not yet.I think this and a kind heart is what makes me a beautiful person ..yes. I know I will get over it too. Why? Because I'll always have you dear blog to listen and understand me wayyy better than people...well I want to share stuff here...this is my escape and I'm glad I'm here.*smiles* 

I think even a hundred pages would fall short of bringing out the tornado that's been taking place inside of me but nobody will and should help me get out of this weirdly dissatisfying situation. I hope I feel better as soon as I finish this post and go back to bed tonight. It's 2 A.M already. 

Amidst all this unending mess of emotions and apprehensions there's one thing I happily want to share...it's my new found love for painting..I've only started days back and I need to learn a lot...but I find it extremely fulfilling. Hopefully I'll start taking guitar lessons soon..that's been on my list forever.

I hope my next post would be much more joyous and gleeful. I feel better atleast for now. Thank you dear blog you did it again. Today is a new day. Today is THE new day. So I'll let the sun shine and dance in my favourite shoes and smile because that makes me & the world beautiful. Speaking of being happy here's a happy song that made past few days a little better for me..Enjoy if you're having a hard day too.

P.S- *Words*- You're my best friend. :)

The Happy Song

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Stay Strong 

Dear Blog..:)

Candles.

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Blazing bright flames

glimmering white candles

fabulous yellow

a shade of joy.
Do you see?
How blithely,
it explodes across the darkness?
Radiant and evanescent
like a poignant dream
it melts away with after glow.
So unwind the string,
and dance away with glee.
For the light may fade
but memories shall stay.

Cravings.

I tell you
it isn't for you to read
and I already see the irony
lurking in the shadow.
Wryly amazing.
Or is it just you
reckless yet curious?

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Maroon.

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Crisp yellow pages
countless words
brimming emotions
untainted confessions
marooned thoughts
letters unsent
& a withered red rose.
Like a souvenir
those unfeigned musings,
adhered to her little maroon chronicle.
Her little maroon chronicle,
the time travelling hipster,
a kaleidoscope of memories.

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-----Sometimes all it takes is a diary to make you realize who you really are.

Perfume.

In silence,
I followed
your exquisite scent.
That one of a kind
fresh floral !
Look !
how quickly,
it healed
my broken soul.

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Twist of Fate

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Falling into nothingness 
Desperate hopes
High on error
Low in zeal 
Cuddling with
this inane vapidness.

Out of the blue
Life,
this ruthless life
played its song
and I, like a mere puppet,
am dancing along.

Rise Above the Horizon

The shining glory
awaits,
a broken shell
a giant leap
unfettered wings
a majestic grandeur
forging ahead,
a knight in the armor.

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