Scars

The world around me spun
and yet they walked away
Their eyes closed.
And souls shut.
Nothing was left behind
other than
a little scar in my heart
a little guilt in theirs.

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The Unexpected

"But why"?
"What ?"
"No, I mean, every other girl that I see there is like totally hot or pretty with amazing body, flawless skin, perfect pout and dark kohl-ed eyes. I thought I was almost invisible, no, I mean I genuinely believe that. I'm nothing. I don't even know how to put on make up or wear clothes in vogue. And you, you are everywhere. I never thought I'd ever talk to you or any other guy in college for that matter. Why me? Why did you even talk to me. I mean I just don't ge--"


"Because you're the only real thing I see in college. "

Love is not a Choice, Acceptance is.

Of all the gushing emotions
the spritz of true love
runs wild & free.
Meandering through a sinless soul
like a drenched fantasy,
it drowns inside the throbbing heart.
The heart, a whispering abyss, a frantic frenzy.
Untamed yet content.
Guilty yet absolved.
Like a game of fire & ice
the reality of love truly resides
where the acceptance is.

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This feels GOOOODDD !!

Well, it came as a surprise but now that I have absorbed this feeling...I AM ECSTATIC ! All thanks to my blogger friend Juhi who writes magic at ShihtZoo for nominating Split Strings for the Liebster Award. And I respectfully ACCEPT it. :)You write some pretty amazing stuff there Juhi. Keep up the good work .I know you will. Once again, thank you for the appreciation.

The Liebster Award Official Rules:

If you have been nominated for The Liebster Award AND YOU CHOOSE TO ACCEPT IT, write a blog post about the Liebster award in which you:

1. Thank the person who nominated you, and post a link to their blog on your blog.

2. Display the award on your blog — by including it in your post and/or displaying it using a “widget” or a “gadget”. (Note that the best way to do this is to save the image to your own computer and then upload it to your blog post.)

3. Answer 11 questions about yourself, which will be provided to you by the person who nominated you.

4. Provide 11 random facts about yourself.

5. Nominate 5 – 11 blogs that you feel deserve the award, who have a less than 1000 followers. (Note that you can always ask the blog owner this since not all blogs display a widget that lets the readers know this information!)

6. Create a new list of questions for the blogger to answer.

7. List these rules in your post (You can copy and paste from here.) Once you have written and published it, you then have to:

8. Inform the people/blogs that you nominated that they have been nominated for the Liebster award and provide a link for them to your post so that they can learn about it (they might not have ever heard of it!)

MY ANSWERS TO JUHI'S QUESTIONS:

1.your secret obsession?

is to travel and travel a lot. It's not a secret though. :P

2. your favourite smell?

Smell of the wet Earth.

3.what inspires you to write a post?

I once had a friend, she did.

4.what is your therapy to get through the lows of your life?

Jot it all down in black and white.

5.one destination you have dreamt of visiting?

I want to travel the world. Every corner of it. But if I have to pick one, that'd be Australia.

6.do you think love gives way to reality?

Absolutely !

7.what do you love getting as gifts?

Anything hand made.

8.given a chance to undo a mistake would you do it or leave it as it is?

I'll undo it, definitely ! I'm pretty sure leaving it as it is will make me regret it again.

9.what do you like to blog the most about?

Poems. Yes.

10.what is the craziest thing you have ever done?

Umm..slapping someone amidst a busy road.

11.what is the biggest dream for you right now?

Stop being angry at myself and get to know the person I truly am.

I put forth the same questions as Juhi's to my nominated blogger friends.

11 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

My family means everything to me.

I want to travel the world. I can travel my whole life.

I don't have a best friend. The one and only best friend I had was when I was 17. We were BF's for 17 years.

I over think the shit out of life.

I've been a crazy Brett Lee aka Binga fan for about 11 years and was recently invited to meet him at certain event. He's gorgeous, if you may ask. *_*

I'm a law student but I've figured out that my heart lies in writing and travelling ! And I almost believe that a career in law is not right for me.

I'm a very honest person.

I don't believe in the concept of marriage or having kids.

I can watch re runs and re runs of Full House.

All I seek is happiness and peace. 

The best of me is yet to come.

I WOULD LIKE TO NOMINATE THE FOLLOWING TALENTED BLOGGERS FOR THE LIEBSTER AWARD

Sadia Khan of Crescendoing Silence

Tanya Sehgal of Coveted Dreams

Valli of Poety-Reflection of My Feelings

Sabeeha of Midnight Scribbles
Prateek of Me and My Dark Side.

That's all folks !  :)

In a Whirlwind of Emotions.

So I've learned to sit with myself. Being away from home,I sat by myself before, a lot, sure yeah but now I have LEARNED to sit with myself....thanks to these past few weeks( read years). I wake up in the middle of a night and I feel sick...I know I'm spinning..my head is..that's my sinus talking. First thought that hits me every morning when  I wake up is of getting up without hurting myself due to the 'chakkars' that may or may not pay a visit. 

I think I've cried a lot...still there's a monstrous pain hiding somewhere deep within..that refuses to come out.I hate sharing my thoughts, emotions or anything like with anyone..actually I'd love to share but I hate explaining...explaining thyself is tough especially when you aren't yourself very sure of what's bugging you. And when I do..I'm at my worst..I'm ugly..not many have seen this ugly that sleeps somewhere within this otherwise a happy girl next door. And probably most of the time..the person closest to my heart suffers a LOT due to this outburst of emotions that comes out in a rather pathetic way. 

I have been a part of a hell lot of negativity too for past few years...but then there were some amazingly true and kind people in my life too...and I love them with the bottom of my heart ..and I loved a few who never deserved an iota of me ! Well, have finally dusted away them all and I'm blissfully left with all those who bring nothing but happiness and peace in life. But there's a pain..a monster..that pulls me back in time..or this abyss that is full of nothing but darkness. It's just sad. I want to get out of it and never come back but it overpowers me to a limit that makes me drive my head against the wall.
Nonchalantly, it gets me closer to the ultimate sin of envy..jealousy..discontentment..of all the stupid things I can think of. I need to find a way to stop it from growing on me...I must and I will.

I overthink. I think this is the monster. I'm overthinking the shit out of life. Yes. I'm trying to get a grip but very honestly speaking, I fail everytime..but I'm not giving up..not yet.I think this and a kind heart is what makes me a beautiful person ..yes. I know I will get over it too. Why? Because I'll always have you dear blog to listen and understand me wayyy better than people...well I want to share stuff here...this is my escape and I'm glad I'm here.*smiles* 

I think even a hundred pages would fall short of bringing out the tornado that's been taking place inside of me but nobody will and should help me get out of this weirdly dissatisfying situation. I hope I feel better as soon as I finish this post and go back to bed tonight. It's 2 A.M already. 

Amidst all this unending mess of emotions and apprehensions there's one thing I happily want to share...it's my new found love for painting..I've only started days back and I need to learn a lot...but I find it extremely fulfilling. Hopefully I'll start taking guitar lessons soon..that's been on my list forever.

I hope my next post would be much more joyous and gleeful. I feel better atleast for now. Thank you dear blog you did it again. Today is a new day. Today is THE new day. So I'll let the sun shine and dance in my favourite shoes and smile because that makes me & the world beautiful. Speaking of being happy here's a happy song that made past few days a little better for me..Enjoy if you're having a hard day too.

P.S- *Words*- You're my best friend. :)

The Happy Song

1

Stay Strong 

Dear Blog..:)