16th of February,2012...AWESOME :D

True..!!

                                                                                   

Dear 16th Of February,2012,
                                              
I can't tell how glad I'm  that you happened in my life..:)
It is a pleasure to know you meet you and finally experience what all you brought along with you..:D 
Couldn't be happier than that night when you brought in such amazing moments and lovely memories to cherish for the rest of my life.
Firstly, I celebrated one of my dearest friend's birthday and it was awesome..
Happy Birthday Divyank, the JAAT boy again.. 
and secondly, I saw a dream turning to reality..in front of my eyes..
A dream that incepted almost 15 years back...after all the turns, twists, swings, drifts, directions, deviations, ,spins...and what not..the day finally came...when it reached it's pivotal.. & effectuated..:)


Tell your other mates to bring such amazing time, experience and happiness along again..& again..& again..I'm all set to have like days in my life..Always READY..!! 
God bless us all..:))

that's what I learned from 16th of Feb.2012..:)

                                      

I'll be a madcap,I'll be crazy,I'll be care-free,how does it make any difference to anyone after all..?

It's a salty curse that no matter how much you try to make people around you happy and satisfied with the kind of a person you are,no matter how or what all you give in or give up for their sake,in the end,they find one or the other avenue to detest you.


Well,it's nobody's fault  because it's the human tendency..it's an inclination to think in a certain way.Hmmmm.. frustrating,isn't it? And I strongly believe that the best way to overcome this accustomed behaviour by the elements around us is to remain unbothered-blithesome-care-free. Having a happy-go-lucky persona really helps. I can say this because two very close people to me maintain this I-don't give-a- damn-what-anyone-thinks-of-me attitude and they live life the way they want and trust me on this,they are "the" happy creatures of my life(touchwood to that).


I too,originally,belong to the like category of these two marvellous people but lately,I have been a little too careful,to an extent that I forget that life is beautiful and has to be lived only once.,probably because I've started living away from my family now and that my near and dear have so acutely made me cognizant of the incidents that take place every now and then ,especially those related to girls,in Delhi.Adding further,It eventually matters to me what people around me think of me or what do I do to make them think that I am better than what they think of me.


Deep down I know exactly what I am,my nature,my thinking,everything and I believe I am a little too good and a lot sensitive person and posses a weak heart.Keeping my modesty intact,I believe my nature is the best thing about me.:D It's like a better,old version of me is fading away superseded by the new one. One precise reason behind this,what I think is moving to Delhi and leaving Lucknow.


At first place,everything seemed so new to me,Delhi is far more different from Lucknow.Secondly,some unfortunate past events that had a major effect on me.Thirdly,a year gap between school and college made me dull(SO,I would love to suggest that think TWICE,before dropping a year and do not stay ideal even if you take a gap,it has adverse effects,well it did have one on me though)And fourthly,I probably have it somewhere in me,to strive and impress but,.in the end,its the real me who makes people love me..But everyone goes through this period at some point of time,why did it had to affect me..?


 All I want is to go back to the time when I didn't have to make an effort to do crazy things around me,when I didn't think much as to what the other person would think or react or how he would interpret if I say something to him,what if it offended him/her or made him/her think otherwise. Why is it so hard for me to understand now that I am responsible only for what I say to them and what I mean by saying that and not for what the other person understands. How hard  it is to speak out my mind and support anything and everything that I believe is right ? Why is this fear arising within me to think twice before speaking to someone and keeping my mouth shut even when I feel bad or offended by the gesture of the other person.This isn't me at first place.


It is really important for me to live by my own vision and stand up for myself and my kins. So here I am,in my blogosphere(the word,shamelessly stolen from Vinati..:P) making a promise to myself to get back and be myself again that I used to be before..to love myself the way I am..Why would I want to be smebody I am not.? It equally applies to all of you out there who feel the same way. Love yourself,your face,your body and your personality.YOU wouldn't be you without them. If anyone talks awful about you or acts atrociously,you stick your middle finger and say screw it..!! It only means that you are better than them anytime..My happiness won't depend on anyone,anymore..except for people who deserve to be with me and with whom I want to live my life with..Don't forget to love yourself..love your imperfections,your flaws,they make you..they make me..And guess what>.>I just found out one thing about me,that ME is pretty wonderful..:)

My Own Small Wonder.

My small wonder..My niece..Avika for the world...My Gola..For  me..

                                      
















The moment I held you for the very first time,
I felt my world in my arms.
Your exquisite eyes,put a spell on me.
I was a happy soul,
spell-bounded by your beauty & charm.
The feeling was unfathomable,
beyond my comprehension.
I knew I couldn't leave you in any situation.
You are my floating angel,
as light as a feather,
My very own,small wonder..
& Life,for me turned better.
Watching you sleep became my avocation.
Making you giggle,was my only mission.
Playing with you all day long was now an occupation.
How to survive without you was the question..
But the day came soon..I had to let go..
Watched you disappearing,
was cluttered in my own thoughts,
wondering when do I get to see you again..
With time things got easy and now my little girl,my munchkin
is soon turning two years old..
Remain beautiful..
Remain my most possessed asset..
I know you will..
'cause you make me happy,make me glow.
'cause your voice/presence makes my smile flow.
Seeing you again will take a while..
But always remember...you are my baby;
When you smile..:)
I_Smile..:)

That's my Gola..my munchkin..1 and a half year back..:)

my gola is a big girl now..!!

Silhouette Of Love.

But then there were yOu..:))

I let yOu in & I trusted yOu & maybe..just maybe..

everything I’ve ever gone through is worth it coz....

thn I found yOu..:))

And It All stArtEd wIth A..
wIsh UpOn stAr..

A wIsh fOR sOmEthIng mOrE..:)

thE swEEtEst frIEndshIp..:))

A dIvInE frIEndshIp..:))

I smIrk>grIn>smIlE>giggle>chuckle>lAUgh>lIvE......:))

yOu gAvE mE A :)

A rEAsOn tO smIlE..:))

whEn yOu're around..:))

hAppInEss thAt I fElt AftEr A whIlE..bEcAUsE Of yOu..:)

An InExplIcAblE fEElIng......

  a sunken smile :)


EyE hEart yOu..:))

 I lOvE yOu..forever and beyond :)

 

jUst A hAppy gIrl..:))

yeeeeeeeeeeee...........!!

Bitter sweet Venom..:))

Still I bElieved wE wErE meant tO bE..:)

Right here waiting for yOu..:))

A hOpE>believe.. :)

 And I mIssEd yOu..:))

And I love yOu..:)
  
And thEn I fOUnd mE In yOu..:))

And yOu fOUnd mE..:))

dAncIng tO thE tUne Of yOur lOvE...

From then ..till fOrEvEr..:))

MY fOrEvEr...<3:))

Lost in yOur thoughts when yOu are not around..

I miss yOu with every unit of air that I take in..

I  feel yOur absence with in the volume of this unkind silence,

take me away,take me with yOu 

and love me incessantly..

I need,want,wish,dream about *yOu* :))

I lOvE yOu..<3

I lOvE Us..<3:))

A Supernatural Vision..

   All supernatural stories hold an unending fascination for me..for I've always been the most excited(curious) one of the lot..showcasing myself as the most intrepid,dauntless,fire-eating creature that you would ever come across,all prepared and organised for hearing,listening,understanding the stories,happenings,events,folklore involving supernatural "beings"that were pulled out of their realm from a vortex.

I got no reason to have this inclination towards such supernatural activities..yet since forever I am into reading,understanding and researching the related stuff..always trying to figure out the little or more truth behind this transcendental,mystical and uncanny world of phantoms,ghostts,vampires and werewolves,spring heeled jack,zombies,witches,banshee,mummies,angels,demons,Prime mover God..the list doesn't just end here for me..And I know I am not the only one here who is interested in discovering the truth behind such celestial or infernal activities..I know I'm not alone in this because there seem to be an unending movies and books written about the preternatural.

The fact of the matter,which I,along with my bro(while we were brattling about this issue,the other day)came upto was that there was an origin of one or more occult/mystical character in every century..which rose to recognition in the very age/century/time..For instance,Vampire-Werewolves related cases were popularised in the early 18th century..succeeding 17th century which was curb by the sagacious witches and banshees,In 19th century.it was the spring heeled jack and I am sure many of you wouldnt know much about him so here's to say that he was known for his startling jumps..used to scare people away..and since 20th century it's been aliens and ghosts(well,ghosts and spirits have been a matter of discussion for all times..and also for the reason that people mostly associate paranormal or supernatural with ghosts.spirits and haunting..well there's more to the term SUPERNATURAL..than this)

Talking about cherubic and miraculous otherworldly beings..Well then I believe that there is this power that makes the world go..balances the nature..looks after us beings..and controls life and birth cycle..We know that power as God,Allah,Jesus,Almighty,Creator,Father,Divine being,Jehovah,Bhagwan.

                                              

One question that always pops out of my mind is What happens after death..Will ever anyone still ALIVE be able to correspond to this question with proper justification and authentication ..or  crack the truth behind this mind boggling question,as I say.....??

Nobody knows the answer to such questions..Then why do these questions exist in this vast,gigantic Universe..If the answers to them do not exist?? There has got to be some answer to  this entangled complexity..as my weird vein believes that every question has an answer..this unearthly,abstruse,dark and hidden mystery also must have one..

I know it wouldn't really bother much to people as such issue is considered as simple fables or folk stories..but it's the wonderful weirdos like  me who believe in giving their brain some strain and make a difference..hehehe..:D

The incidents related to ghosts,spirits and aliens are still very much talked about..and scientists all over the world have the faith about the existence of other creatures apart from humans from eart and in a sense it can be true because there are zillions of galaxies and umpteen planets..Life must exist in any of these..

The thing is to find out..bring out whether it's  true or not..because till the the present or past existence of  supernatural and paranormality isn't proved..with accuracy and authneticity,The question always remains the same.....Truth or Falsehood..Real Or Myth...??