A Simple Plan.

" So you're leaving me?"
Safira didn't utter a word but kept staring at the bouquet of red roses,her favorite. Aditya bought them for her on his way back home.

"And what's with this inclemency? Stop being so frigid and hard on me. I need you to answer me RIGHT NOW..!! Are you?" he asked angrily.

"Yes, and I don't have to explain you the reason. You already know." Safira crippled.

"Is it about last night?" he asked.

"Yes and the night before and tuesday night too. I cannot take this anymore,Aditya. I'm done with you rebuking me every now and then. You can't put up yourself for a second without criticizing or complaining about my dress, my looks, the way I walk,talk,cook and what not........I'm tired...and I'm hurt....so bad...and" She broke down as he advanced forward to comfort her....but she barred him from coming close to her.

"We can make things bet..." Safira cut him off  in the middle ," NO...!! I don't want things to be better....layering my mind and heart with load of crap and then bringing me sweet gifts of your pseudo love isn't even love in the first place..and it wouldn't do any good to me..." She cried as she threw away the red roses on the ground. 

"I detest you after what you did to me last night. You hit me, Aditya, because I didn't want to cook. I was tired, Aditya. I work 9 hours a day too. I have my moods and choices too. It's worthless telling you this after what you did. You're nothing less than a monster to me. I hate you...and I wish I'd never have to see your ugly self again..!!" 

Without a sign of guilt on his face, Aditya yelled back at her," So I hit you. I was mad. I work hard to earn what you just waste away on your looks which aren't even worth spending thousand bucks on and don't get me started on your insatiable feasting frenzy, Safira. Get over yourself. You needed to learn a lesson or two. And where would you go any way?"

"Anywhere but here." something inside her was constantly dying when she heard what Aditya told her...he didn't have a fear of losing her..moreover he was quite confident that she wouldn't be able to leave him. It was a disgrace to her love..her heart..which ached..in silence.

She paced towards the door. She didn't care about anything now.
She didn't want to remain arrested in his concocted tale of love.
She'd do anything and everything to get over his spurious thoughts. She even left her family for the sake of his love,little did she know about the unfortunate series of events that hit her like a thunderbolt.

His voice distracted her thoughts again, " So you're really leaving? In a sense, it's nice... at least I'll have some peace around me. Go away. If you find anyone better than me out there..huh..."

She didn't reply but kept moving...she opened the door and again his voice interfered," You think it's the right thing to do? You think it's that simple?

"Yes. It is that simple,Aditya. And much better too, than living with you."

" Oh yea, well let's hear about your "simple plan" then,eh?"

"As long as I have somebody to love me like crazy, it will always be easy and simple to leave back everyONE who has, have or had caused pain to me And you'll always top the list, Aditya."

You don't have anybody out there..you're at loggerhead with your family too...Who'd love you more than me Safira? Who would?"

Safira, for the last time, turned back and looked at him.
She smiled, painfully, and with tear-filled eyes,
she answered," I will."

                       

                                       Little Miss Captivating.

It's true that unlike many people I don't really enjoy being around kids unless they're too cute to fall between the cracks. It's not that I hate them (yes I'm blind eye-d towards those badly misbehaved ones) and also I'm head over heels in love with a few.I have my favorites and most of them are blood related and way too adorable. (I'll post few pics some time ) but somehow I can live with the fact that when a kiddo or a baby at times passes by me, I don't always launch myself upon the the poor thing and annoy him enough.

But yesterday,something strange happened to me. I was with a friend at GIP, Noida, gorging on the chocolate fudge like a pig, when this little girl caught my attention.

She must have been 4-5 years of age and no she didn't look like a butterball nor was she chubby nor plump. She was fine. Absolutely alluring. . I was intrigued. I was in love with the innocence that her angelic face assured. 

She wore a green hoodie and had no idea what was going around. It was my first time ever that I gestured a little one to come to me. But she wasn't interested. She had her eyes fixed on the chocolate fudge that I was feasting upon. She was so little and ethereal that she was unable to carry the hoodie and  couldn't even walk accurately. That made her look even more amiable. 

She was pure. She was sinless. I loved her carelessness, how, unlike kids of her age, she never cared about running to her parents when a stranger waved at her..rather she preferred to stay for the sake of having a chomp of the chocolate fudge that I held in my hands. 

 She was gorgeous.  I was so mesmerized by her charm that I didn't even catch sight of her guardian/s.  She was so little and slender. The moment lasted for a while. Her eyes twinkled as her heart told her to have the ice-cream but in a split second,as if she rose from her sleep, she turned to the opposite direction and advanced . It gave an impression as if it was her sheer attempt to avert her attention away, to other things. She never looked back again. She glided forward, never missing anything that caught her sight. And my eyes followed her till she disappeared.

I wish I had clicked a picture of her. But the moment lasted for a short while. I didn't think about anything but her for that moment. Like a pretty little doll she was. God bless her. She made me smile then and,

She just made me smile again.  :)

                                                The Sweetest Memory.


          I know I know, every year I promise that I won't but still I do. Every year I turn out to be selfish enough to miss you so much ,I just couldn't stop myself. It's been 9 years and still there isn't a single day that I don't think of you, baby. We all love you, always will.

After these many years, life has turned upside down and as I jot down my thoughts here, I wonder how much you'd have grown by now..and so beautiful and intelligent, yes. :)
I know I shouldn't but can never forget your cute, care free smile, little angel. :) I know it's time to let go..I've been thinking that from last 9 years but this day of the year always makes me helpless.

You will always be safe in my heart. No one can take away my sweetest memory of you. 
I don't have anything else to give you except for my words of love. No more tears now, or at least I'll try to improve as I always tell myself.  And life without you has made me realize one thing, had you been here, you'd have understood me way better than many people in here.

At times I miss having someone like you were to me, even though you and I both were so young back then, yet I know how close we were and  would have been. But God had some other plan for us. I can never forget the happiness when the news of Khushi, being born, broke into my ears. I believe you came back, I'll always believe, well, we all do. I again promise to try, yes, try and hold back the emotions from now as I pray for your happiness, where ever you are.

Forgive me for being rude to you or hurting you, scolding you back then, I really am sorry. 
Sweet,little sister I love you and  always will.

Happy Birthday to you.
 Little sister. :)
Be happy and stay blessed.
where ever you are. :)

I love you. :)

                                 

                                                    You Beauty..!!

Beautifully Captured.

                             
                                                           

                                                                    Traversing,
                                                     from home-like to home loving land,
                                                                      at ease.
                                                                          *
                                                                     Evading
                                                            Away the abstract mind,
                                                                  Fixed on you
                                                                 My eyes freeze.
                                                                         *
                                                     My vision attains a panoramic range.
                                                                      Moon,
                                                           You, overwhelming beauty,
                                                                 A fling of  fantasy
                                                               An enchanting dream.
                                                                          *
                                                        You Stayed with me all night long,
                                                         Cushions bolstering all around.
                                                           Hiding under, skipping over,
                                                     reminding me how your beauty surrounds.
                                                                         *
                                                                 Mesmerizing,
                                                             is the word that counts
                                                                     Moon,
                                                                 You, beauty
                                                              My token of peace,
                                                              You silvery fleece
                                                        Without your an unending presence
                                                             the universe would cease.
                                                     

You Beauty..!!

                                                     
                                                         

Never fails to grab my attention, You ..!!

                                                     

So peaceful...!!

                                       

The man who defined cricket to me..!!

One of the few good habits that I've adopted during these vacations is waking up early in the morning..*proud*. And this really is an uphill task for a sleeper like me..!! And so today, while I went for my so -called-5 minutes-morning walk, Friday, the thirteenth struck my mind..(today's date) and as convinced as ever, I never doubted my believe that it's a mere date and don't know why it actually bother few people around me and many across the globe. I'm anyway not  a believer of all the like stuff.

Didn't have to go for my training today, so was quite relaxed and I don't know what hit me, I logged in to my twitter account, No, I don't have much followers there because I have a purpose for joining twitter---> Brett Lee and Only Him..:) And what news did I read ?? 

Brett Lee's retiring from international cricket (all forms)  I felt paralysed with the shock of not being able to watch him play in his yellows..:( I have been a cricket crazy fan since class 6th ( I know too young an age for a girl to watch and love cricket) but this man, the speedster did wonders to me...And I knew someday this would happen but never expected this to happen any sooner than 2-3 years from now..:(

The feeling couldn't sink in so instantly. :(

As I read what Brett tweeted ( It's official, I have retired from international cricket! Thanks for all your love and support. It's been an amazing 13 years) a tear flowed down from my eyes and I knew cricket for me won't be the same anymore. That man defined cricket to me. I won't be the same cricket crazy fanatic anymore and I'd hate being that way..:(

Few people say I exaggerate my love for him, many make fun , truth is if anyone of them have/had been a fan  
anyone ever for real, they'd understand..as for Brett, I wish him a speedy recovery and all the best for his future. Only regret being not be able to watch him play in a stadium. But IPL next season, Watch out, I'd be there to cheer KKR...:*

But yes it's true I've never been so crazzyy for any other celeb in my entire life and after being a Brett Lee fanatic for about 10 years, there's no way I'd fall for anyone else, the way I did for him, He makes me feel like he's always around, just have to make a call for him and he'd be right there..*sigh* never thought of him as a celeb much..:/ He made me smile by his mere presence in the world of cricket. I wonder how it'd be like meeting him up someday. And I'm not dying till I meet you Mr. Lee..:)

I had to tell you how crazy I've been for you and how much I've admired you and after reading your book (My Life: Brett Lee) I have fallen all over for you again for you're such a remarkable person and yet so humble. :):) You inspire me..NO ONE CAN REPLACE YOU EVER..!!

And one wicket shy from Mcgrath's 381..it really makes me want to make you play one more ODI ..it really hurts to watch you bid goodbye..:( but hey I'm happy that you've been a legend in the cricket world and a hero to so many people like me around the world. # Respect..total respect..:)

I've loved you for 10 years..I love you today and I always will...Can't wait for IPL's next season..( can't believe I'm saying that, I'm not much of  a fan of this league)

Thank you Bing for being in the world and making me aware of your presence..you've been an incredible bowler and an energetic athlete. 10/10 in every way. :)

As I dedicate this post to you, I had to jot down few lines which I believe are one of your favourites too..:)

These lines take me to a place where I can atleast imagine being with you..:D God I'm really crazzyyy..:):)

Every time I close my eyes it's youAnd I know now who I amYeah, yeah, yeahAnd I know now

There's a place I go when I'm aloneDo anything I want, be anyone I wanna beBut it is us I see and I cannot believe I'm fallingThat's where I'm going, where are you going?Hold it close, won't let this go

Dream, catch me, yeahDream, catch me when I fallOr else I won't come back at all..:)
Stay blessed Bing.With loads of love,A Brett Lee fan forever.

And one day I'd replace this pic for a real you and I pic.:)